Hi guys! Thanks for joining me over at my new space. I've been working away at it for a while now and although it's not perfect, felt it was the right time to launch it.
One of my life goals this year is to aim for a more balanced life. I've invested almost ten years into my current career and today is the day to share my thoughts on it.
I work in a very fast-paced, male-dominated, dog-eat-dog, type of industry. I initially took my position with the intent that it would be a stepping stone into the marketing industry, but eventually fell into the line of brokerage. As a marketing coordinator, my position was stressful, but manageable. When I took on a brokerage role, it was when everything fell apart - my health declined, I gained substantial weight, my relationship became strained, and I was constantly agitated and on edge. Not to mention, I was so connected to my phone that I didn't even need to have it on any kind of sound notification as I could feel when a message came through; while on the other hand, the sound of the phone ringing would put me into panic. Clearly, I was miserable. Knowing it and admitting it to myself was the biggest struggle - I couldn't bare to quit, to admit to myself that this role was not what I wanted, and saw it as failure. I thought I could force myself to do it and that I was just in a slump, and for a million and one other reasons, this was what I really wanted, when the reality was, I hated it.
In this last week, I was able to come to terms with this, accept it and tell my senior partner. It was such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. We discussed it and decided that I will transition out of brokerage and be more behind the scenes, where I excel at managing the team.
Just the relief of getting it off my chest, has made me so happy.
Much like this blog isn't perfect today, my life isn't perfect, but I'm starting down a new path that I'm excited about and I'm already functioning a lot better.
The path to a balanced life seems a lot more attainable now.